you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Monday, May 03, 2010
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10:02 PM
I'm living in denial of the world around me.
Where do I go when there is absolutely no where to go? No one to turn to. You would think one's mind would be a sanctuary during a time like this. But, no. It's the cause of my denial, of my confusion, of my doubt. To feel yourself slipping off the edge, and having no rope to pull you back. To start thinking that everything I have vowed for is a lie.
I wish I didn't feel this way. I wish I never thought this way. But, I'm too far gone. I yearn so much for someone to save me. And to see that no one can. Not even God. It's a scary feeling, being all alone to fight this. Waging war with myself. I can only crawl back within my empty soul, and hide there.
But how do I tell people? I don't wanna disappoint my family. My friends since young. My dad. I couldn't bear for people to blame him for all this. I wish I could make this all better, as if it never happened, but I can't. Only I can fight this now. Alone.
Somebody save me.
Debbie.
you are my past ; now, im my everything
