you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
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11:44 PM
Guess I interpreted wrongly.
Salutations. I was originally going to say that it was a fruitful weekend. But things decided to take a turn of their own. I was in church to help out with the Christmas deco. Yes, we put it up. Then, I saw Josh. He came to help out too. Was glad to see him after so long. Haha. Putting up the deco was really fun. The Christmas tree, the ornaments, the snowflakes, the bell, the beads. And of course, the snow spray. With Xmas carols playin from Abi's Ipod. It was so much fun, with everyone helping out.
Then today, after church, we had the Kids Christmas Party. I had to dance and sing. We had to do some Hi-5 kind of dance. Haha. We also sang songs like Frosty, Rudolph, etc. We wore reindeer antlers with little bells on them. Haha. So cute. Esther said I looked like House Bunny. Obviously, she can't differentiate between the two animals. The food was great too. Yes, we took pictures. Will try to Facebook them soon. We also finally bought a Xmas tree. I'm so excited. God has answered my prayers. Then, things took a turn for the worst.
Why is it everytime I try to let go of you, you come back into my life, haunting me? It hurt worse than any cut I've ever gotten. It was like my heart was ripped out. Why do I have to love you so much? Why is it that tears are pouring down my face? I wanna move on, to let go of you. Of everything that reminds me of you. But when I see you with her, oh God. Pain cannot begin to describe what I feel. Maybe I'm being paranoid. But everyone can see it too. Oh God. Why do people have to fall in love. I wish it was all over. I thought I knew you well. But I'm still decoding what it all means. I'm trying so hard. But I keep stumbling. They make it seem that giving up the one you love is easy. If only. Haiz.
The love that kills
Your face that haunts my once peaceful nights.
Your eyes that peer within my soul.
Your voice that shatters all hope.
But yet you seem to be mine.
Or so I hope to believe.
I can feel you slipping, far away,
Not of my own will, I know.
Her enchanted words have charmed you.
And here I am left, a bleeding victim.
Bleeding my love out for you.
As you fall in love with another.
Fate has cast such doom upon me.
All out of entrusting my heart to you.
Yet,despite the wounds, it still does.
They wish our world would no longer exist.
But has God decided more for us than we know?
Time has only left me, scarred.
Yet, my love is all I can give to you.
How did we get here? I used to know you so well.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
