you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Monday, December 29, 2008
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4:43 PM
A jolly good time eh?!
Salutations. It is the 29th of December. Firstly, I would like to wish my dearest friend Sanjay, a very HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!! I wished him at 12mn. Haha. I love doing that. Anyhoo, Christmas was a blast. Had an awesome lunch at home with my family. Then, we proceeded to Pastor Amos' home for dinner. It was sooooo much fun. Yummy yummy tantalizing food. Smoked chicken, prawn sambal, spaghetti, turkey ham, cheesecake, fruitcake, fruits, murukku and sooo much more. Had a bit of wine too. Haha. We all played sherades. I guessed almost all for my group, Team Laddoo. We beat Team Murukku. It was loads of fun.
The youths stayed over. We played card games, played some other weird games and stuff. The guys decided to hold their own gambling den in the corner, playing Blackjack. So we, the gals and Ben, drove down to the cemetries at CCK area, since we were nearby. We drove into the cemetries. Rather creepy. Then, we headed back. Chilled a bit longer, then went home. It was a great Xmas day. I wish it didn't have to end. Haiz.
Well, there's always New Year to look forward to. One big, long holiday season. The best part is, I don't have to go back to school on the 2nd of Jan. Weeee! Haha, so exciting. It certainly is a beautiful time for celebrations. Oh ya, Josh Immanuel and I are going to sing a duet for New Year. I was supposed to sing a solo, but knowing me, no way. So we are singing Beautiful Day by U2. Wonderful song, wonderful band. Esther, Gopi, Paul and Luke are doing a dance. A remix of 4 Minutes and a JabbaWoockeez song. It's gonna be a blast!
I already got my black boots to wear. Now, all I need to get is this dress that I saw at Bugis Street. Then my look will be uber gorgeous. Haha. I'm bubbling over with excitement. Alright, I shall be off now. Will post again on New Year. Have a happy holiday people! Cheers!
It's a beautiful day. Don't let it get away.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Thursday, December 25, 2008
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1:07 AM
Woohoo.
Salutations. Yes, I know. It's finally here. MERRY CHRISTMAS! It's 1a.m. now. Officially 25th of December, Christmas Day. I am so excited. I've been waiting the whole year for this. My family celebrated with the popping of a Sparkling Juice bottle at 12mn. We prayed a short prayer, and toasted. Then we opened a box of Ferrero Rocher. Joshua called from Australia. He isn't doing much for Xmas there. I miss my brother sooo much. Then my family in Malaysia called. Uncle Simon, Aunty Sandra and Slvina.
Went shopping earlier today at Bugis and Tampines Mall. Did some last minute shopping. I already went shopping the day before at Plaza Sing, but when it comes to Xmas shopping, you can never buy enough. Haha. Have been receiving loads of smses from everyone. Even Sanjay and Ghaz wished me. Haha. How sweet. Anyway, will spend lunch with the family. Made fruitcake, murukku, mutton,etc. Yummy! For dinner, we'll be headin over to Pas Amos' home.
Alright. I just wanted to wish everyone a Blessed Christmas. Have a happy holiday. Spend this time with your loved ones, and spread the love. And remember the real reason why we celebrate Christmas. The birth of our Saviour, Jesus Christ. God bless you all. I have to turn in early. Gotta wake up early to wrap gifts. Haha. Sweet dreams everyone. :D
Have yourselves a Merry little Christmas.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Sunday, December 21, 2008
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8:29 PM
Is it here yet?
Salutations. Today was a good day. Went to church. Had fun. We sang carols after service. I can't believe Christmas is on Thursday. It's sooooo close. Weeee. I have finally gotten a Christmas tree. Blue and silver ornaments. And beautiful lights. My first Christmas tree in Singapore. Rather memorable. Haha. Anyhoo, it sits comfortably in the corner of my living room, adding glow to my home. It truly feels like Xmas.
Other than that. I HAVE FINALLY WATCHED TWILIGHT. I just couldn't be more ecstatic. I have watched it thrice. I watched it for the first time with Nithya. Then second, I watched it online. Third, I watched it with Esther and Faith. It was beautifully perfect every time. I'm planning to watch it again. It was just awesome. Robert Pattinson did a superb job. I was honestly hyperventilating throughout the film. Damn hot for a cold-skinned vampire. Oxymoron.
Alright, so I have to buy Xmas presents and my New Year outfit. This year no event for Christmas in church, but we will be having our annual Watchnight Service on the 31st. I'm going to wear a red dress, hopefully. I can't believe I am going to 17. Wow. If only, 17 forever. Just like my beloved Edward Cullen. Oh well. I just I just have to embrace it. I shall post again on Christmas. I think. I love this version O holy night. Mariah Carey did a great job. Alright then. Merry Christmas! Cheers!
O holy night. It is the night of our dear Saviour's birth.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Sunday, December 14, 2008
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11:44 PM
Guess I interpreted wrongly.
Salutations. I was originally going to say that it was a fruitful weekend. But things decided to take a turn of their own. I was in church to help out with the Christmas deco. Yes, we put it up. Then, I saw Josh. He came to help out too. Was glad to see him after so long. Haha. Putting up the deco was really fun. The Christmas tree, the ornaments, the snowflakes, the bell, the beads. And of course, the snow spray. With Xmas carols playin from Abi's Ipod. It was so much fun, with everyone helping out.
Then today, after church, we had the Kids Christmas Party. I had to dance and sing. We had to do some Hi-5 kind of dance. Haha. We also sang songs like Frosty, Rudolph, etc. We wore reindeer antlers with little bells on them. Haha. So cute. Esther said I looked like House Bunny. Obviously, she can't differentiate between the two animals. The food was great too. Yes, we took pictures. Will try to Facebook them soon. We also finally bought a Xmas tree. I'm so excited. God has answered my prayers. Then, things took a turn for the worst.
Why is it everytime I try to let go of you, you come back into my life, haunting me? It hurt worse than any cut I've ever gotten. It was like my heart was ripped out. Why do I have to love you so much? Why is it that tears are pouring down my face? I wanna move on, to let go of you. Of everything that reminds me of you. But when I see you with her, oh God. Pain cannot begin to describe what I feel. Maybe I'm being paranoid. But everyone can see it too. Oh God. Why do people have to fall in love. I wish it was all over. I thought I knew you well. But I'm still decoding what it all means. I'm trying so hard. But I keep stumbling. They make it seem that giving up the one you love is easy. If only. Haiz.
The love that kills
Your face that haunts my once peaceful nights.
Your eyes that peer within my soul.
Your voice that shatters all hope.
But yet you seem to be mine.
Or so I hope to believe.
I can feel you slipping, far away,
Not of my own will, I know.
Her enchanted words have charmed you.
And here I am left, a bleeding victim.
Bleeding my love out for you.
As you fall in love with another.
Fate has cast such doom upon me.
All out of entrusting my heart to you.
Yet,despite the wounds, it still does.
They wish our world would no longer exist.
But has God decided more for us than we know?
Time has only left me, scarred.
Yet, my love is all I can give to you.
How did we get here? I used to know you so well.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Saturday, December 06, 2008
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9:31 PM
Have I checked in? I think so.
Salutations. Today was a rather productive day, I would say. I fell sick last night, after going swimming in the evening at Deepak's house. The swim was totally worth it, but the flu that proceeded, was not. So, I took medicine,and now I'm fine. But I was so reluctant to get out of bed to go to church for music practice. Had no choice. So after practice, Abi and I had our dinner scheduled. As usual, we went to Subway. We had a rather interesting drive there, haha, in Abi's new car. Poor girl, she was scared as hell. So, while enjoying our scrumptious meal, we had our mentor to mentee talk.
She made me realise that life is worth living for yourself. No guy or person is worth wasting your life over. I really opened up to her and vice versa. I almost cried so many times. But I tried holding it in cos I was in a public place. I guess it's time for me to check into rehab. I can't let him affect me anymore. There's so much temptation around me, but I have to prevail. I am more than a conqueror in Christ.
Guess my blogskin is perfect then. Haha. I have to let go of the love, the hurt, everything. All that I hold on to of him, shall be no more. I'm letting you go, boy. It hurts, but I must. You were my everything, but now God is. No longer my ecstacy you shall be. Woah, I sound like Yoda. Here's to a new year of indepedence, womanhood, singleness, dignity and GIRL POWER. I am my own woman. Or at least, I'm trying to be. I ain't perfect. Oh this is going to be hard. Pfft.
Anyway. Twilight is coming out soon. Super excited. AAAAHHH. Hurrah! Xmas is coming too. I have excitement in every bone. Hurrah! The year has come to an end so quickly. Oooo. I haven't thought of gift ideas. I better start planning now. The folks are going to be out of town tomorrow. FREEDOM.Have plans already. Haha. If only freedom could be placed inside a box, neatly wrapped, tied with a lovely ribbon, and delivered to someone as a Christmas gift. Ooooo. Coolation! Hurrah!
Alright, enough of my British exclamations. Oh ya, Selena Gomez isn't as bad as I thought. After watching Wizards of Waverly Place, I believe she has some talent. Kudos to you. Happy now Nithya. Haha. Speaking of whom, I am supposed to meet her and Priya for Ben and Jerry's. Hurrah! Oops. Alright then. Cheerios!
You were like my lover and my best friend.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
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12:02 AM
When will it happen?
Salutations. Christmas is coming closer. I really cannot wait. First, we have the Kids Christmas Party on the 14th. Next, we have My Hope Parties on the 20th. Then, eventually Xmas itself. Bobby asked me to type an article for our Youth Newsletter, titled, What does Christmas mean to me? Somehow, within the next few weeks, things will eventually become more Christmas-ish. I really love that. Every year, however, one thing never changes. My home. No tree. No decorations. Just the same old house 365 days a year. I wouldn't mind not having any presents. Just to see my house look festive, will be enough for me. That is all I want. Please, can someone grant me my wish this Xmas? God, please help. :(
Haiz. We'll just have to see. So, 18 more days to Twilight. I cannot wait. I know it's gonna be awesome. Can't wait to see Robert Pattinson in action. Boy is he gorgeous. And a Brit too. Oh Lord. Alright, Jo akka and Abi are getting their cars. This is awesome. I can't wait to drive. Gopi is going to drive too. Soon. Esther has left for Korea. Josh J is having an awesome time in USA now. New Jersey. Paul returned from Hong Kong. Seems like everyone is enjoying themselves this holiday season. I hope I do too. I wish my mummy was ok. And I wish a Xmas tree and Xmas decorations would appear in the night. Wishful thinking aint going far.
Other than that, nothing much. Been watching movies and chillaxing. Oh, I really really can't wait for Xmas. Haha. Time to start planning my resolutions. Alright. I'm off to Facebook and going to watch a movie now. Will be including Xmas Carols as much as possible. Happy holidays!
It's the most wonderful time of the year.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
