you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
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4:52 PM
Feeling empty now.
Salutations. I know people may think that I am overreacting, especially those of you dedicated ones out there who are reading my blog. But, the fact of the matter is, I am not exaggerating. It is what it is. This is life from my view, my eyes. And so, if I perceive certain issues in a certain manner, then that is all up to me. I don't need to explain myself to you people.
Well, Nisa and Nury asked me along, for studying of couse. Well, the reason I don't wanna go is because of this sense of emptiness I feel. I just don't belong. Like the odd piece of a jigsaw puzzle that you think fits perfectly into the empty slot, but no matter how hard you push it and force it to fit, it never will. So, I just exclude myself. That seems to help me heal, in a way.
I have already lost most of what is dear to me. Zhaf, well, needless to say, doesn't need me anymore. I'm losing Amirul too. We are not that close anymore. Conferencing with each other, that's fine. Don't bother inviting me. Oh wait, you didn't. Call me selfish, but I don't care. I need these people in my life. Nisa and I are not close anymore. Guess the people you love the most, always tend to hurt you the most too. Unfortunately, I realised this a wee bit too late.
Well, no use complaining right. Brave the storm. Fight the winds. Soar high above on wings of eagles. Screwed up my practical. So much for being confident. Guess everything that can go wrong, will go wrong. It's all a matter of time. Yup, well, guess feeling empty helps. The resonating pain is consumed by all the emptiness. Hollow. Yup, that's me.
Don't wanna lock me up inside.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
