Here we go again.Same old shit again. He tells me I'm the only one who shows him love and always cared for him. And then he is close to me.The bond becomes so much stronger. And I'm much happier again, basking in the glow of it all, before it slips away. AGAIN. I hope each time that this sad ending will never happen again, but alas, my hope runs void. It happened again. He acts like I'm just some Sec 4 girl he knows. Not a sister. Not a treasured friend. Barely talking to me when I make the effort. So why do I bother? I just sit in the corner and hope he talks to me. But nope. Nisa gets his attention, Aida too and Nury. Me, just a hi. As usual, I'm sulking and missing him more than ever. And then, after a looooooooooooooong while, he repeats his act of thankfulness and etc. And..well.You know. Why do I bother? Cause I love him dearly, my little Sec 3 wonder boy.My lil' Chris Brown. Hope you know who you are. Please don't hurt me like this. If you're just gonna do it again and again, please spare me the heartache.

So, went to library today.Study with Mirul. Then Jay joined us. Thank God for Mirul. His maths is POWER yaw!! Haha. Then ikut Jay to buy food from S-11. Then Jay and I take 21 back while Mirul take MRT. I skipped the conversations in between.DUH. So, EMPOWERED concert tomorrow. I'm singing. Then back to more studying. Oh ya, got my O Level MT results. I got a bloody C6. Cried my lil'eyes out. But at least I pass. But I'm still retaking. I ain't satisfied.

Gosh I miss Edward. Haha. I miss Bobby. I miss Malaysia. Found out tt Jay is half-Malaysian. Haha. I'm not alone. Weeeee!! Oh well. So, other than that. Nothing much to post about. Oh ya one more thing. About him. Not the him I talked about earlier, but the him I talked about in my last post. Well, his eyes still captivate me. So deep, I could drown in them. And yet,I feel like I'm home. Right there with him. His smile. Gosh. But I guess love means to sacrifice. And I'm sacrifing my confession to be by his side without him feeling awkward. Haiz.

Here are photos from the memorial service I went for in Malaysia for my late grand-aunty.