Put me out of my effing misery.
News delivered. Straight to you gal. You wanna attract attention?!! Go search for people who actually care! Your pathetic attempts at grovelling for attention are utterly disgusting. With the loud songs blasting when you're walking around like an effing MINAH. Wateva. Then fake "illnesses" and then you're okay after a while. SOOO merepek. I HATE and DESPISE people like her. Attention Seeking Disorder. Don't you have dignity or are you soooooo desperate for people to look at you that you don't care? Seriously, get a life. Rolling eyes now. Act cute bitch! AAAAHHH!!
Okay. On to other matters. I'm halfway done with Breaking Dawn, which is the final installment of the Twilight saga. I don't want it to end. But all good things must come to an end. Even someone so perfect,gorgeous and glorious as Edward Cullen. Sad much.
Someone reach out to me. I know you're out there. Somewhere out there. I can't take this pain anymore. The one person you love, and your best friend is taking him away. I have no choice but to fake this smile on my face. I even joke about it, when it's tearing me up inside. Those eyes. Might as well drag me across a bed of nails and leave me on the floor to bleed myself dry. Is anybody out there listening? Zhafri, I need you. My dear adik, I need you now, so much.
Guess I have to face this on my own. He can never know. It would just ruin everything. All that I have worked to achieve in our friendship. Our closeness. I don't wanna ruin it. Guess I have to be the third wheel again. The one left behind. Left out. Left alone. What can I do anyway? All these are just inconvenient truths. I only have one hope. The hope of the cross.
Crawling in my skin. These wounds they will not heal.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
