you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
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6:53 PM
Home sweet home. Malaysia here I come.
For once, I wish time wouldn't pass so fast. I'll only be in Malaysia for about 2 days. So, I have to absorb the sweet smelling beauty of that which surrounds me in the lack of the suffice of time that I have. God, be gracious. Blood is thicker than water.
I wish the hands of the clock - which so gracefully tick away a second of my life, quicker than I expect it to - would slow down. The pressure of Prelims and O's, gosh, who knew life would require this much at only 16. Sure, we feel gratified when it comes to material things, feeling the need to be ostentatious. But when academics are involved, we slowly shy away.
I feel alone. I feel I don't belong where I am. In school, with the people around me. Im not with who Im supposed to be. That's what saddens me now. AHHHHH. Im going bonkers. There is this gaping hole in my heart, void. I am waiting, for something, or someone to fill it. The people around me, every place I go, don't seem to piece this puzzle together. God, save me. From this misery. Only You know how pathetic I am. Stuck in desolation!
All hope that I have, rests in Edward Cullen. I am waiting on the 3rd book, Eclipse. He gives me hope, with all that he does for Bella. Pfft. Life is effing bad now. Get me out of this bloody shithole. No one, except God, knows my pain. Friends?? Yeah, sure. Friends??!! Somehow this word, has a double meaning. Go figure.
Amirul, I need you. Please, make me smile. Amirul, where are you when I need you and your comforting hugs. You were always there for me. Now, I hardly see you. Zhaf, where are you when I need you to wipe my tears again. Haix. Like I said, shithole. Oh FCUK!!
I am vincated. I am selfish. I am wrong. I am right.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
