you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Monday, July 28, 2008
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10:25 PM
There certainly is no place like home.
I'm back from Malaysia. We drove straight up to Klang. I had an awesome time reuniting with my family. I miss them so much. I'll try to get the pics up. Have to "import" them from Malaysia. Haha. We went to visit Aunty Orange's grave. Had a minute of silence and a prayer. Then we headed back home, to get ready the house for the memorial service. I really miss her alot. But I know, she's up there with God. So, the memorial service went well. The menu was specially chosen by her, before she passed away. She told us how she wanted the service to be. So, in remembrance of her, we did it according to her wishes.
So, we spent alot of time together. The whole family. I got to see a picture of my grandparents, my great-grandparents and my great,great-grandparents. Haha. Familia. We also managed to get KFC. WEEEE!! Malaysia's KFC is da best. DUH! Also, after years, I ate my beloved Kaya Balls. Since I was little, I used to eat them. Only found in Jusco. Reunited again. We stopped by Bangi on the way, to visit Unc. Roland and family. We reached Singapore at about 4am. So I didn't go to school today.
I really wish we didn't have to come back. But we don't exactly have a choice. I wanna stay in Malaysia. With my family. My country. My home. I could so easily leave this life behind. I'm going back after O Levels. For as long as I can. I would have forced my dad to let me stay. Really. But someone I thought of made me come home. I missed him too much. I thought about everyone else, but they didn't matter. He, made me come home. Zhafri. I missed him so much. I wanted to come home and see his face. My beloved adik. Okay thats all. Oh ya, and my life is still a shithole. Crumbling down around me. Piece by piece.
Stay with me. Don't let me go. I can't be without you.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
