you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Monday, July 14, 2008
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3:17 PM
Mummy, please be alright. I can't live without you.
Wow. Yesterday, was a big day. Haha. First of all, it was Paul's bdae. Happy Sweet 16 boii!! Though, since he's a guy, dunnoe if it's still sweet. Anyhoo, I smsed him at 12midnight. And I told him hours before, that I was gonna call him. He replied with a promise to stay awake. Despite his, Im sure, "prevalent" efforts to stick toothpicks between his eyelids for my sake, he fell asleep. Yes, lemme reinforce that, he fell asleep. So, this seems to me, that he much rather sleep than turn 16. So, in church, I screwed him. But, we cut cake for him anyway. Delicious cake I might add. We took pics. We were hoping to play Winning 11, but Bobby didnt bring it to church. He came from army camp.
My parents didnt go to church cause my mum was having heavy bleeding. When I came back home, my mum told me she was going to KK. I was shocked. But, I helped her packed. The stale smell of blood got the better of me, and I almost fainted twice. Then, after they left. I fainted. I fell on the floor in the hall. My little brother panicked( according to him), and tried calling people on my hand phone, but to no avail. He doesnt know how to use it. To make matters worse, my house phone isnt working.
So, luckily, my church friend called my phone, and Vic picked up. He told them I was on the floor and not moving. Blablabla. I woke up in a daze, and he passed me the phone. Esther, on the other line, told me that my church member staying nearby was coming over. She came, and took good care of me until my older brother came home. All the while, I was feeling dizzy, so I lay on the couch. Wow, my first, and hopefully last, fainting spell. I think the whole church knows I fainted cos calls were going around like mad to see if I was ok. Haha. What a day!
So, my mum's in KK now. They are gonna do a DNC. And then, probably, she'll be back tomorrow. I hope. I did my crying yesterday. So, today Im fine. Didnt go to school. Someone has to take care of Victor. Seeesh!! You may, or may not, ask why bad things are befalling me at such a time?? Who knows. Devil is trying to bring me down. But I aint going nowhere. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
One more thing, I am officially,head over heels, desperately, unconditionally, irrevocably, more than in love with Edward Cullen, the vampire who doesn't exist expect only in my head and in my heart. Bella who??? Edward is mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bella and Edward
And so, the lion fell in love with the lamb.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
