you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
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9:44 PM
I will miss you dearly. You'll always be in my heart.
I was so excited to post my pictures. Until yesterday. I'm sorry, you'll have to wait. I received news from my Dad last night that he and Mum were gonna drive up to Malaysia to visit my grandaunt who was in a bad condition. I didn't think much of it because she had come out of it so many times. I wanted to go too, but had commitments in church and school. Halfway, on the Causeway, my Dad calls Grace( my sis), to inform her about some grave news. Grace came to me and told me. My grandaunt passed away last night. :(
I cried and cried. And Im still crying as I type this. She was close to all of us. This is when I regret coming to Spore. Cant even go for the funeral. Effing Oral! Stupid O'Level! Eff this world! Malaysia is my home, and where all my family members live. We live so far away and when these things happen, we cant be there. DAMN! AAAAHHH!!! But I thank God, because she accepted the Lord last year. So I know that she is up there with Him. God, please take care of her.
I miss her so much. We nicknamed her 'Aunty Orange' because she used to peel oranges for us and feed us when we were young. Joshua ( my bro) was the closest to her. He's sad he cant go too, being in Australia and all. Sorry if this week I'm a bit emo or spaced out. Please understand. If only I could have said goodbye. Hugged her one last time. Got soooooo caught up in Spore life, that we didnt go back for Christmas. I regret it all now!
S'pore took up my time and my life. And now, who I really am, a Malaysian, is being robbed from within me. Please my friends, learn from this. Life is too fragile and short to get caught up in work and friends, that you forget your Family. Be it Father, Mother, Sibilings or Relatives. Make time. Before its too late. I cant even type properly, my eyes are filled up with tears.
I will miss you dearly Aunty Orange. I love you very much. I know God is looking after you for us.We will be reunited. One big happy family. :(
I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
