you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
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9:44 PM
I will miss you dearly. You'll always be in my heart.
I was so excited to post my pictures. Until yesterday. I'm sorry, you'll have to wait. I received news from my Dad last night that he and Mum were gonna drive up to Malaysia to visit my grandaunt who was in a bad condition. I didn't think much of it because she had come out of it so many times. I wanted to go too, but had commitments in church and school. Halfway, on the Causeway, my Dad calls Grace( my sis), to inform her about some grave news. Grace came to me and told me. My grandaunt passed away last night. :(
I cried and cried. And Im still crying as I type this. She was close to all of us. This is when I regret coming to Spore. Cant even go for the funeral. Effing Oral! Stupid O'Level! Eff this world! Malaysia is my home, and where all my family members live. We live so far away and when these things happen, we cant be there. DAMN! AAAAHHH!!! But I thank God, because she accepted the Lord last year. So I know that she is up there with Him. God, please take care of her.
I miss her so much. We nicknamed her 'Aunty Orange' because she used to peel oranges for us and feed us when we were young. Joshua ( my bro) was the closest to her. He's sad he cant go too, being in Australia and all. Sorry if this week I'm a bit emo or spaced out. Please understand. If only I could have said goodbye. Hugged her one last time. Got soooooo caught up in Spore life, that we didnt go back for Christmas. I regret it all now!
S'pore took up my time and my life. And now, who I really am, a Malaysian, is being robbed from within me. Please my friends, learn from this. Life is too fragile and short to get caught up in work and friends, that you forget your Family. Be it Father, Mother, Sibilings or Relatives. Make time. Before its too late. I cant even type properly, my eyes are filled up with tears.
I will miss you dearly Aunty Orange. I love you very much. I know God is looking after you for us.We will be reunited. One big happy family. :(
I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Sunday, June 22, 2008
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6:39 PM
Take me home to Malaysia, anyone please!
Okie.So Day 3, we were supposed to go for the Cable Car, the best attraction there. But it was under maintenance. How shitty, right?! So we did more shopping! Fed rabbits and took pictures with eagles. It was awesome! Then after that, we went for go-karting to cheer us up. I totally kicked ass. Haha. I should become an F1 driver. Ben and Papa broke records of 7 laps. It was great! To cheer up our souls even more, we still had time to go back to the hotel and swim. We raced back to our rooms and changed. I ran back to the pool and made a grand entrance. I came in by the slide. Haha. So ccco-ccoollddd.
In the pool, all of us played Captain's ball. It was really fun! My team lost, but who gives a damn. We had a blast of a time! Myself, Bobby, Gopi, Melanie, Luke, Danny, Josh J, Josh I, Ravi. I think thats all of 'em. Oh well, we played to our heart's desire and got out. The guys kept pushing each other in again and again. Eventually, they stopped. We had to get ready for group rehearsals before our performance night.
We lost some of our props, so we improvised. After the scrumptious BBQ dinner, we all performed. We were really funny, based on feedback from other people, of course. Every group did great, a lot of effort. Kudos to everyone! Overall, after performance plus games, Imperial Eagles came in 1st. We came in 5th. But we all had a great time there. So, at night the gals hung out at the guys's room. Playing cards and watching Euro, though we did almost kena sabo. Dont wanna talk about it.
The next day, we packed up and left. Took a church photo with our church camp T-shirt before we left. Our guides, Fadzly and Siva, were great. We ate Kenny Rogers and KFC on the way home. I truly enjoyed it. Classic tastes only found in Malaysia. Honestly. Played UNO and Stress in the bus. Eventually, we all knocked out. Melanie and Gopi damn funny. Laughed my heart out. So, reached S'pore and took the car home. Didn't wanna return to S'pore to be honest. But cant help it I guess. Ppfftt. So, overall, church camp was awesome!
Malaysia, truly Asia.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
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7:44 PM
I wanna go back to Malaysia!
Hey everyone. I am back from Langkawi. I had an awesome time there. Filled with fun and discovery. Today I guess Im just gonna post about what happened. When I get all the pics, then I'll put them up.
So, unfortunately, I fell sick the day before we left. But I refused to let it stop me from having fun. So, since we all overnighted, we did our group banner at about 1am to 3am. Then, slept for a while. Got up and realised everyone reached church. Then, we boarded the bus, and left for KL. I knocked out in the bus cos of the medicine. When,I woke up, I felt much better. Then, my relatives came down to the airport. My cuzzin, Slvina, couldnt make it cos she had school. How sad! So, we did our catching up, and boarded the plane. The best thing about AirAsia, is they are sponsors for Man U. They were selling Man U goods onboard. My dad didn't let me buy bcos he said that I should wait for Langkawi.
So, we finally reached, got our rooms, and washed up. Had an awesome dinner( the crabs were power). Then, did shopping. Langkawi had duty-free goods, so very cheap. That was first day. Second day, we went to the mangrove swamps. The boats went soooo fast. Then, fed the eagles. Also, we went out to sea, where we could see Thailand. Also, we went to the bat caves. OMG! So creepy! You can't say anything so that you dont disturb the bats. Also, we saw limestone formations inside. Beautiful! Outside the caves, there was this secret cave where the ruler of Langkawi hid during the Siamese invasion. We climbed up there. It was awesome. I tell you, Langkawi is a must-see. It is spectacularly beautiful.
Then, went swimming. Biggest swimming pool in Langkawi. With two slides. Haha. Power. We all went down together. Then, went to the beach for group games. Haha. Tiring. So hot. So, the youths ran back to the hotel and jumped into the pool. Haha. So fun! That night, I injured my knee. But I still went shopping. SO, I bought my Man U t-shirt there. WEEEEEEEEEE!!! So happy! My dad rubbed ointment for my knee. So it was better. The guys invited me to their room cos I was alone. Gopi, Pat, JJ,Danny,Luke and Paul. Played cards, talk2. Gopi and Paul played guitar while I sang. Then, we went to sleep at 1.30am. That was Day 2. Hmm.
Alrite, Im tired. I'll update Day 3 and 4 another time. So part 2 coming soon. Gonna eat dinner now. Ciao!
Home is where the heart is. Always.
Sweet 16.Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Friday, June 13, 2008
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12:04 PM
Wanna fly sky high. Now.
Okie my dearest friends and fellow netizens. Today, I am packing my bags. Staying overnight in church with the rest. Don't know how we are all gonna squeeze, but guess we have to make do. Got planning to do. The GALS are so gonna be triumphant this year. Guys, you're GOING DOWN!
Okie. So leaving Saturday morn 4am. Taking coach down to my hometown, KL. Then taking flight from there to destination: Langkawi. My team, CROWNED HAWK EAGLES, are so gonna kick ass. All the rest can go fly kite! I am thrilled beyond reason that I honestly couldn't sleep last night. So, woke up a few hours ago, and we all talked to Joshua through Skype. :) He's doing fine Down Under. Flew his plane yesterday. It went well. I really miss him. Speaking of Joshua, today, is Nadera's bdae! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BESTI! SWEET 16! I know you miss Joshua dearly too. It's alrite. haha.
So, will try to take lots of pics from Langkawi. I'll try my best to snatch up some souvenirs for my friends, no promises though. Hehe. Budget a bit ah. I have been mugging my arse off. Well deserved retreat, here I come. Alrite then, I'll be off now. Will try to update from there, though I highly doubt I will have time to do so, being in the holiday mood and whatnot. Bon voyage!
I'm going home. To the place where I belong.
Sweet 16.Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
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12:25 PM
3 more days to Langkawi.
Well. I have lots of things to post about. So, pardon my long post.
Joshua has left the building. My dear brother, flew off to Australia. For 9 effing months. Not for holiday. But for his piloting career. SIA. Yes, he's gonna become a pilot. Well, of course, as expected, I wept. He hugged me and I cried like a baby. Im gonna miss him dearly! Church gang came down, we all prayed for journey mercy and etc. Then waved goodbye. Longest time a family member has been away from me. Counting down.
On to other matters, Councillor Camp. Finally. It was awesome. Thursday night Campfire was damn fun. Waited for Mirul, who went to exchange his Tshirt. Brown? Grey? Hmm. Go figure.
Met Demas, Lock and Jay at canteen. They played PSP. I went to converse with Nisa, Nury, Fadz and Zhaf. During campfire, we danced the night away. Guys vs Gals. Then brought out the cake for Mrs Moraes' farewell.
The plan was, Sanjay supposed to lead us in bhangra. We did manage some CHORI CHORI, but the plan cocked up. Jay and I really wanted to bhangra. Wasted opportunity. So, cake cutting together with Demas' bdae celebrations. Then, makan time. Cake was scrumptious. After enjoying, Mirul, Demas and Jay sent me to bustop. The rest stayed overnight for the night walk and all.
Next day, woke up early morning and headed down to school. Told ghost stories about the night before. Then, we had water activities. We splashed water all over them. Then played water bomb. I was drenched. Thanks to Zhafri and Lock. We chased Mirul and finally got him. He took his revenge with F&N Orange. Haha. SOOOO FUN! Everyone was soaked. Then we dried off in the sun while waiting for KFC. Met Fit and talk2.
We went to change clothes. Fadz piggy-backed Zhaf. So I piggy-backed Nisa. And Mirul piggy-backed Jay. Haha. Then we raced to our bunk. So fun!! Then after lunch, we played concentration and other games. There was this white bitch. Haha. Intruder. Nobody asked you to KPO. By the way, Jay, whats the square root of 169? Haha. Then went to art room. They busy doing something. We, played with paint. Mirul, muka macam giler, went WILD with paint. So cute. Nisa and I were laughing away. Then we drew tired, and sat down. I slept on Mirul because no more space on chairs and he's comfortable. We all took ALOT of pics with Lock's PSP and the school cam.
Then, had area cleaning. Packed bags. They went home. We all slept on the floor. Played soccer. Then went home. It was so much fun. Glad I went. No one can convince me otherwise. And that, is my account of Councillor Camp. I did skip a few details, but perhaps that's better left between us. For those who were not there. Sorry. Go find another blog which gives details. :) Here's two of the many pics.
Drying off in the sun
Nisa,Demas,Mirul,Deb, Zhaf(lying down)
I'm leaving on a jet plane. Don't know when I'll be back again.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Friday, June 06, 2008
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8:55 PM
Craving sleep.
Just came back from Councillor Camp 3 hrs ago. I'm so dead tired. Had toooooo much fun and laughter. Now my body is craving sleep. Good job to all the Sec 3 facilitators. Kudos to you all!! Fadz and Seena led them well. I wanna tell you guys all about it. But Im really tired. I can only post this pathetic information.
I had so much fun with Mirul. Haha. :) Took photos banyak2. Ahh.. cant talk. SLEEP. SLEEP.
AHHHHH. Tomorrow got bowling. Im gonna miss Hannah Montana. :(
Then Sunday got church and rugby. AHHHHH.
Will post about camp and upload photos when I have recovered.
Flames to dust. Lovers to friends. Why do all good things come to an end?
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Thursday, June 05, 2008
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4:05 PM
I want a laptop.Real bad.
Today is supposed to be jam packed with loads of activites. However, my circumstances have chosen to prove themselves otherwise. Today, im supposed to be bossing around Sec 1s and helping out at the Student Councillor camp. That, my friends, is spelt F-U-N. However, told Nisha I would go for tuition. So, didnt wanna postpone AGAIN. I went. So now, instead of making my way down to school, I'm sitting here updating you people. To make things even worse for me and more fun for you, I have a group meeting for Church Camp. We are supposed to act out our drama today. But Im not going.
Now, everyone's telling me that I shouldnt go for SC Camp. They think its unimportant and a bloody waste of time. They tell me, go for group meeting. Well, lemme tell you something people. In the famous words of Britney Spears, and I quote, that is my prerogative. I wanna go for camp, I go. You don't decide for me. I decide for myself. If I wanted your opinion, I would actually ask for it. So you can take your opinions and shove it! Cos I dun give a damn!
So, waiting to meet Mirul and gang. Nisa and Nury already went in the morning. So, waiting here until they finish their exhilarating celebrations regarding Demas' birthday. Yup. I guess God allows these things to happen, to let us learn and grow.
Alrite, so. Coaching is over. Can't wait for Langkawi. There are a few deep issues on my mind. But I dont think Im gonna post about it just yet. Nope, not yet. Maybe she'll change. Who knows. But then again, she's her. Has always been her since Sec 1. Will always be her. Maybe I should change. Well, honestly. Only God knows. Only God can judge me.
I don't need permission. Make my own decisions. That's my prerogative.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Sunday, June 01, 2008
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10:36 PM
Really wanna get a tattoo. Really.
Today, was out the whole day. Sundays as usual. Busy busy me. Woke up late for music practice. So was blamed. Yes, I. The agony of being the pitiful 16yearold. So church went well. As usual, the team said I couldnt be heard when I did back up today. I WAS SINGING FREAKING LOUD OKIE. Try doing the parts and you'll understand my unfortunate predicament. Also, got our church camp T-shirts. Damn nice. And had group meeting. What would they do without me, Secretary of the Year.
Then, had a quick bite for lunch. Gluttony is a sin, yeah I know. Recited too many a time. Ran back to church to go for soccer match. Against Bethesda Frankel. The best of the best. We blazed on the field. Unstoppable despite many good, "chivalrous" attempts on the side of the opponent. All I can say, REFEREE KAYU!
Was utterly drained out from watching the guys running. Haha. One classic quality I noticed among our guys, their camaradarie. Kudos to them! BENitez did a good job with all the prevalent efforts of a timeless manager. Then, went to East Point. Dining at LJS. Ate my fill and Bob dropped us back. God bless him!
Today, I talked to Anand. A dear guy. I promised I would talk to him today. And apparently so, a woman of my word, I am. He's really funny and entertaining. But he got distracted. Haha. Inside joke. Miss talking to him. What a cool dude. Haha. Thanks Anand for the laughs.
So, now, sitting at home, blogging. Tomorrow school is another topic altogether. At least its Humanities. Captivating at last. The humdrum of school life during holidays can really eat at you. Ppfft. Thats life for you. Monotonous when its meant to be. So, nothing else to post about. Hmm.
Looking forward to Wednesday. Last day of coaching. Closer to Church Camp. And I get to see MIRUL!!! And the rest of the dudes!!! WEEEE. So excited. Sanjay, Demas, Lock, JD. Counting down. Lup dup. I can hear it. My heart. Zhaf came back. My dear adik.
Tattoos not forever. But the scar of love marked on your heart, its eternal.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
