you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
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1:23 PM
Wish I found a magical wardrobe that led me into a world unknown.
Watched Prince Caspian yesterday. A day before the actual release. WEEEE. Loved it. So awesome. I am a huge fan of the Narnia collection. The epic battle between good and evil never ceases to amaze me. Well, I wish Aslan had a bigger role. He only appeared in the finale or so.
Tsk tsk. He is infact the epitome of this entire alliegance of proclamating the truth. I just had an epiphany. If you take away a key role, someone who possesses such honour, pride and degree in a film or storyline, wouldnt there be a loophole? Hmm. Hopefully, the third installment makes up for the lack thereof. This is supposed to be an allegory. But, unfortunately, God didn't make much of an appearance in it.
Ok, before I become a movie critic, let me fill you in on other stuff. I've been having migrane for the past 3 days. Took 5 panadols but to no avail. Couldn't go to school today. Pppfft. Oh ya, I got to eat Subway. WEEEEEEEEEEE. I llllooooovvveee Subway. Tre magnifique.
Okie, other than that. Josh, my bro, he is flying off to Australia soon. Not on holiday. For studies. He passed the 2 crucial exams. And guess what, he got the highest score EVER in 13 batches. WOW. God's grace. I'm so proud of him. Can't wait to go Langkawi. My escape.
Alrite. So that's pretty much it. Hmm.. yeap. Tts it. I miss Mirul. And I miss Zhaf. :( Oh well.
For NARNIA!! And for ASLAN!!
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Monday, May 26, 2008
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2:18 PM
I want a Thai massage.
Okie. Ppfft. O'Level MT exam is over. The written one that is. Few hours ago. Ppfft. Again. I d-dd-d-ddoo- dont know what to expect. I really need to pull through, to get me my 9 points. I wish there was a way I could avoid O's. But it is, unfortunately, inevitable. Tsk tsk. Treachorous torments through tackling tabulations. Haha. Hmm???
Everything is depending on God now. Lord, my trust is in you. No matter what, let Your will be done. Praying hard. Till then, I still have 5 other subjects to conquer. English being my main battlefield. Mass Com requires a lot out of your hopefully-not-pitiful- vocabulary. AHHH. WHY? Sec 4 life sucks. I think.
Hmm.. well. Zhaf liked the t-shirt. It fits him perfectly. Cant wait to see. Will be going Langkawi soon. To forget this mayhem. My ticket outta here. Weeee... I dont really have anything else to blab on about. So I'll save you the humdrum. Waiter, rain check please?
So. Until and unless something actually ridiculously fascinating occurs in my life, I shall be blogging off. Ta! My fellow good netizens of blogspot.com and other such related webbies.
Can you fix my h-e-a-r-t?
Cos its d-a-m-a-g-e-d.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Friday, May 23, 2008
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7:58 PM
I miss Sec 2.
Here goes. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHAFRI! HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICTOR!
Well. Today is Zhaf's and Victor's bdae. Isn't that great. My adik and my adik angkat. :)
Can't believe they are all grown up. Haha. Victor had a good day apparently. Free milo and jelly made by mummy. He's smiling. He's soooo happy that everyone remembered his birthday. For Zhaf, well, his mum forget his bdae. That sucks. Poor boy. He looked so down in the dumps today. Im so sad for him, cause I noe what its like to have a sucky birthday.
Just had PTC. My mum came down, and thankfully Ms Suhaila had nothing bad to say. Or should I say Cik Su. Haha. I only failed one sub...combined Science. I passed Malay. This is miraculously good for me. Hmm. I can't wait to give Zhaf his gift. I know he's gonna like it. Standing there with him just now, I realised, I love him more and more each day.
Many people may think that Im overreacting and Im wrong, but I dont give a damn. He's a sweet guy. Amazing friend. Wonderful adik. I may complain at times, but hey, dont all sibilings?
Guess its part and parcel.
June hols. Not really hols at all. Gotta study like hell. No free time. All taken up. My only form of escape, Langkawi. Cannot wait. Not seeing my friends for 1 month, damn tt sucks. I wanna go back to 205. Where we ruled the school and had lots of fun. Kishen, Senthil, Aida, Hadi, Ghaz and the rest of the gang. Miss you Senthil.
Okie, well other than that, half the year is over. Time to start anew. Wow. I just realised. Im 16.
The bond between sibilings is greater than what is shared between friends.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
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7:45 PM
Shit. The O's are here.
16 is alot of work. O'Levels. School. Friends. Family. Life. Wow.
Well, My Malay O'Level is in a few days. Im so scared. Deep shit scared! I'm doing my best. By God's grace, I can make it through. Glad to have my friends back.
I seriously need to save money now. Can't eat recess cause Zhaf's present costs a bomb! But it's worth it, for him. I really hope he likes it. I love you Zhaf! And I miss you alot!
So, I shouldnt be blogging. Should be studying. Well, just taking a break. I miss rugby. SO much! It was effing fun. I promise I will work hard Ben annai. I'm sorry if I made you angry. Didn't mean it, you know I love you alot annai.
Hmm..church camp coming soon. Going Langkawi. Back to my Malaysia. Our T-shirt is damn cool. My group is soooooo gonna win. Crowned Hawk Eagles. Rendezvous. Then, in June got the Underwater World thing for Bio. And Councillor Camp. AHHHH... and COACHING.
Can't wait for O's to be over. Can dye my hair, pierce my ears and change my name. Well, maybe not change my name( e folks would flip out)... but dying my hair, nobody's gonna stop me. Wanted to pierce my tongue, but I know that's too extreme for e folks. So, sticking to the ears I guess. Haha. Well, let's get through May 26th first huh. Yeah. One step at a time babe. Keep your eyes on the prize.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
Everybody makes mistakes. Everybody has those days.
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Friday, May 16, 2008
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4:50 PM
Feel like going clubbing. Hmm.
American Idol. David vs David. Perfect. David Cook all the way. Never met someone so deserving of being the Idol. Except Chris Daughtry. Congrats.
Next. The day I thought I'd never get through. I got over you.
Then. Results came back. Screwed up big time. Damn effing bad! English, which is my forte, totally gown down the drain. I barely passed. What is happening to me?! I have never done this horrible for English. Argh! Well, good news for Malay. I passed. Hallelujah! I passed Maths too. That's amazing. I passed 4 out of 6 subs. I'm very disappointed. I expected to do very well for Bio. I put in alot of effort. This predicament I am in is utterly horrendous and I hope that I become so shit scared that I scare myself out of it.
Last. My life is falling apart. Yet it builds me up somehow. But only I know how it feels. My heart knows the pain. God, please help me.
The pain is unbearable. Maybe if I close my eyes it'll go away.Maybe.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Monday, May 12, 2008
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1:39 PM
Aida. This is for you. After reading your post on your blog.
You say you love me. Then you maki me? You critisize me?
I never said I was mature. You guys said that about me. So, dont think I said it about myself. Well, I never said you stole anyone. Thats between me and Nury. Why I was angry with you was because you just SUDDENLY ignore me. You didnt look at me, never layan me, never wait for me. And I dun even noe why. The day before that, you were like normal. I thought I could rely on you to talk, to break the ice between you and me. But then, you turn on me. And I dun even noe why. What do you expect me to think?
Then, I told this to Nury. I forgive you both. Completely. But Im scared to come back bcos I dun wanna be hurt again. You guys have hurt me before, and I dun want it to happen again. I have nothing against you.
Lastly, frenz. Remember when you had the fight with Fiqah, Amani and Nadia? Me, Nury and Nisa comforted you. You came back to us. When your frenz left you, we were there for you. And we took you in with open arms. Everytime you did something wrong, we forgave you when you said sorry. We accepted you back. We didnt write on our blogs about you and critisize you. Same goes for me with Mirul and gang. You, of all ppl should understand how tt feels. So I dun think I need to say more about tt.
Aida, I may seem like a bitch to you now. Its okay with me. But u say you love me, why are you talkin about me like tt? I have been there for you. I have helped you so many times. And I never compared you guys with them. I just thanked them, its called basic courtesy. Maybe you havent heard of it. You said you dont wanna hurt me, but by sayin all those words, I am hurt!
I still love you guys though. Though the closest ones hurt me, I forgave them.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Saturday, May 10, 2008
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9:29 PM
Feel like going clubbing.
Exams are over! Celebrated on Friday. Went out with Mirul, Demas, Lock and of course Sanjay Belani. They had to wait for me cos I had more papers than them. But they waited. Last minute, decided to go Vivo. They were planning to watch What Happens in Vegas. But I wanted to watch Iron Man. So we watched Iron Man first, and they paid for my ticket for the next movie. And blanja me popcorn and nachos and Coke. How sweet. I love these dudes!
The movies were awesome! Iron Man was cool. Vegas was hilarious. Haha. U KNOW WHY!. Then headed home after taking pics in the train. :) Had an awesome day! Then sumone got angry!
Sorry Cyril if you're pissed with me. I'll explain it to you if I can. No need to get irritated k. So ya, thats about it. Monday no school. Hopefully,can go out. But Im broke. Seriously. Zhaf please read my previous post if u havent yet. Thanks. Thanks Mirul for being there for me. Thanks Sanjay for always making me laugh and smile when I was down. Thanks Demas, Lock and Jian Da for sticking with me and being awesome frenz. Thats all.Goodbye.
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Friday, May 02, 2008
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7:22 PM
Yes. How reliable? Too much SS stuck in my head. Thank God its over. And yes, I did cock up the reliability questions just now. Thanks Mr Farizal.
Well, they both apologised. A normal, sane person would accept this apology. But not me. First of all just the word sorry has meaning. But sometimes said alone, it hardly means a thing. I appreciate the effort to type those 5 letters, but please. After what you put me through, emotionally and physically, I think I deserve at least more.
You may not agree, but Im giving my opinion. And for the other person. If you wanna ignore a person, at least have a reason to be angry with the person in the first place. Not act like close frenz one day, and then the next day, just brush the person off as if his/her name never came across to you in your entire life. Thank God for Nisa for sticking with me all these years.
Who knew secondary school had so much drama? Well. Tts life. And I gotta say thanks to my other group of friends who kept me company today when I had an emotional breakdown. Thanks Mirul for always being there. Thanks Demas, Jian Da, Lock and of course Sanjay. Thanks for the strong shoulders to cry on. Haha.
Last but NOT LEAST, I need to thank Zhafri. He came to me at the right time, and I just broke down in public at the bustop. The concern in his eyes made me cry even more. He wiped my tears, literally, and told me it would be alright. I miss ZHAFRI ALOT! He was there for me and I greatly appreciate that. He will always have a special place in my heart, my beloved Adik. Always. No matter what happens. Forever.
Well, thats all I to say. Can't wait for exams to finish. Oh ya. Happy Birthday Anand!
Sweet 16. Gonna spread my wings.
=DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
