you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Friday, March 17, 2006
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10:48 PM
Time flies really fast. Holidays are gonna be over so soon. Haix...wat to do. Well, i had a good time. Anyway, did some changes here and there. And excited bout tomorrow. Im gonna wear my new outfit. Oh ya, today we went to Mac's to do project. While waiting for the bus..we saw..HELFI! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Poor Zahira..cause it was his twin. So funny. So now, we are all confused. I pity Zahira though. We need to dig deeper and find out the truth.
Esther shifted house already. Cant wait to see it. Went to school today. Finished up DNT and went for Maths. I think the Maths helped. Im much more confident about my Factorisation now. But its still a bit confusing. But i think ill be sick if I see more algebraic expressions and all. I need a longer break. Cant wait for june hols .And for church camp. Back to my home sweet home, Malaysia. Ahh..need to see how its doing. Alrite, well thats basically it. Adios. I have nothing more to say. Peace y'all. Im out. =DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
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11:43 AM
Yesterday, the SWAT team went to Fish and Co. at the Glass House. It was Gareth's birthday. We had a blast man. Haha..i think most of us became bankrupt after that. I had to order the cheapest thing..Fish and Chips.. which was about $13.90. Yes, believe it. But its the best in town. It was extremely delicious. Oh ya, we had to pay extra for GST and for the birthday cake. We asked the musician to play Happy Birthday for Gareth. I'll show you the pics soon.
So after dinner, we went outside and took pictures at the LOVE statue thingy. We looked like hooligans. The pics will prove itself. Haha..but it was fun. Then, we hung out and played Sherades. The girls won..of course. Dont mess with the best!!!! It was a good day. Cant wait for my birthday. Exactly one week. March 22nd.
Alrite, well thats all today gang. I may be going to church for School of Destiny. See first. Today got my fav Malay show, Teman,Anugerahku. Alah see first. OK bye... tc... Peace. =DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Monday, March 13, 2006
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10:53 AM
Hah.. saying goodbye to my last few days as a 13 year old. Sad..but life must go on. OK, an update on yesterday. After service, we went for lunch. Then went home and came back to church for the "Genius Thinking" talk. It was really good. Now, i'll start observing more how people talk and their gestures. Haha, oh ya, on the way back home, we all squeezed into Gareth's car. Hahax.. altogether 9 ppl. Record man. Went home all cramped up and numb.
So after the Genius talk, we went out to eat. But waited so long for our food. Then had to rush eating cause Caleb had to go. Speaking of which, less than a day, and i'm already missing him. Im so heartbroken. My brother is in Malaysia and i'm here. BOO HOO!! I wanted to cry yesterday but i thought, better not make a scene. But had a long day and a good one.
So today, im going to buy jeans. Abigail is following me. Caleb's birthday present to me. That's why I love him even more. Hehe. Then going for Guitar classes and then Apostolic Prayer. And my Monday is done. Kapish. Alrite. I got nothing else to say. So goodbye people. Hope you like the song playing now.
Bubye and take care. God blez. Peace. =DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Friday, March 10, 2006
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4:20 PM
Haha. Just helped my mum vacuum the whole house. Since Sree akka is staying here. Anyway, I just installed in my favourite Malay song.. Pop Ye Ye, by V.E. The Love Anthem..haha. Cool sia.Alrite, well, later going bowling for Contact Team. Of course I'll be the best. Hehe.. sorry, this is one thing that I have to boast about since im not good in many things. Besides singing and dancing. So, holidays have come. But for one bloody week only. Its not much of a big deal.
Lemme tell you why, most of my teachers gave us homework. So it adds up to alot. Price you have to pay for being Express. Shit man..there's so much to do. Plus, must go back to school for DnT and Maths. Seesh.. holidays gone down the drain. I hate it man. Ah well, all my friends got camps. Hope they enjoy the torture. Hehe.. alrite..nothin to talk about. Lemme think....................................nope. Alritey then...adios muchachos.. and have a great holiday. BubYE.......................... =DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
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9:31 PM
Well. When you feel rejection from people, its likely that you tend to either take it out or keep it in. In my case, i'll take it out. Ok, so, feeling rejection from family is worse. Thats my situation. My parents talked to me about it though. They explained why. But i still feel rejcted and left out. They don't care. Always blaming me for everything. Everything is always my fault. Attention to the rest, except me. Now, Caleb's always too busy to talk to me. Always going out or talking to Abigail or doing something else. I hate this...and believe me, life gets suckier.
What's worse is that I found out Esther is playing the guitar for Youth Service. And my own brother chose her. I feel so downcasted. By my own blood somemore. It makes me feel so worthless and pathetic. Haix. I wish i was never born sometimes. I wouldnt be such a burden to my family, i wouldnt torment everybody with my moodiness. And problems with Gopi just add a HUGE weight on my shoulders. I'm trying to be nice to him but things are just not the same. Maybe thats the way its meant to be. I'm so confused. And Caleb's too busy to talk to me about it. So, i talk to Bobby, but then my parents think im too close to him so i have to avoid him.
MY LIFE SUCKS TO THE CORE!! The only good part is God. Pastor Frikkie prayed for me and told me " Jesus love you very much!". So at least i noe God loves me. So i can live my life with only one person loving me while the world continues to ignore me at all costs. Great. Cant wait. I just wish this was all a dream, from which i am gonna wake up soon. I feel like crying again. I already cried on Saturday. I'm glad i resolved the whole "killing myself" thing with Abigail. Im glad she was there at that time. Sshh..dont tell anyone.
OK... JoShuA wants to use e com. Selfish pig. He already used the whole afternoon and evening. And just to edit some STUPID photos of the Aerospace to put on Frienster. SEESH..get a life man. Anyway, i have to get back to my BLOODY REJECTED LONESOME life. Goodbye. Gdnite. Tc. =DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Saturday, March 04, 2006
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1:06 PM
This is the case in my house with the com. Property of who? Joshua thinks it's his. He pays for it right, thats why.. YOUR HEAD AH!! He always hogs the computer. Wake up, go to com. No life basically. I hope he gets a job soon.. so he'll be out of our hair.
Ok, moving on. Yesterday was East View Idol. I had to be a bouncer. Haha... really. I had to keep the unwanted people out. I also got to watch e performance too. Faruq did a great job. And there was a group who sang " Pop Ye Ye". My favourite song. Someone also sang one of the Anugerah's song .. Fauzi Laily i think.. not sure. Andreas ( bapok ) danced. His group was excellent. FANTASTIC. I have never seen ppl dance like tt. COOL!! And Mr.Wee was the best judge. Zahira bodoh sia... she believed tt Syed Azmir came. Haha. Then after that, the bouncers( prefects ) were rewarded with our cookies. We ate to our heart's content. And Kishen and Senthil went to buy drinks. So after some laughs, we went home. The 21 bus was damn crowded so I took 81. And then got down, and walked the rest of the way home. I was so tired. My mum was scolding me for not joining. Hahax.. maybe next year.
Ok.. well..today got Youth Service. I havent finish my follow-up homework. Only half way. Aiya, I forgot, Monday got to present Science skit. Alrite.. gtg. Bubye. See ya. Tc. =DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
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4:59 PM
Well, i tied my hair in a different way today and most people said I look nice. So, therefore, beauty for a day. Ok, well yesterday rocked. I saw " haus ", and he looked great. He came with the other prefects too. They gave the prefects a talk. I learnt quite alot. Everyone was givin' me e look. Haha, it was sucky. But the best day of my life. Haix.. sad it had to end.
Alrite..well, a new day. Today, took my History exam. Damn hard sia!! Even though i studied. Haha, i hope i do well. I think its because Mr.Farizal was not there. If not, confirmed easy. Hahax.... mapek. Well, today got SOD but im not going. Decided not to. Resting at home today. Ok, had briefing for Prize-Giving juz now. Im gonna get my prize on Speech Day. Damn it sia!! In front of everyone. Hate it. Just in case u didnt noe, im getting a prize for the " Top Student in Literature for 2005". Really. I got a score of 92. Which is an A1. Cool rite. I noe. BUT I HATE LITERATURE TO THE CORE!!! .I only did well in it cause of my English vocab and grammar and stuff. Well, must accept your Destiny. But, im proud of myself. Ok, so i got an extension for D and T. Good.
Now my mum is off to church. I get the house to myself. YAY!! Well, looks like tt is all i can afford to think of to write. Ill see u all. Bubye.. TC............ Adios . =DeBbIe=
you are my past ; now, im my everything
