lil.queens - because im everything without you

you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006 ; 10:39 PM

Really. Looking beautiful is painful. Well, taking the Herbalife shake isnt that painful. But, its so tasteless,it makes you wanna puke. Even with the orange juice in it. And plus, swimming and playing tennis all in one day. OUCH!! My body hurts. So tired!! But my fingers are still strong enough to type. But my mind is becoming weaker with the thoughts of school. Haix...dun wanna go back to school man. IT SUCKS!! Too freakin lazy. Haix. But I cant wait to get my results. Especially my English. My fav subject of all.

My mum is bugging me now. To get off the comp.. her fav thing to do.. besides praying and readin e Bible. Hmmp.. well.. i like the new new pics i put below. Just two pics. Of my two fav people in Singapore. Go see. If you know me well enough, you will guess it without looking below. But just to please me, please do. Haha. I think im gonna get " a friend of mine" soon. Im sure the ladies will understand. I dun want it to come. But its part and parcel of being a woman. Seesh..

Well, got a message from Gopi today. I am so happy. It really cheered me up. Now i can sleep in peace. I cant wait to see him again in church. Counting down the hours. OH ya.Caleb is coming back tomorrow. SO HAPPY!! I miss him sosososososososososo much. I wanna hug him. OK..well. Im off now. Tata.Bubye.Gdnite. =DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

Monday, January 30, 2006 ; 4:05 PM

Incomplete. Thats the feeling im having in my gut right now. Well, i read something really sad. A life of a woman. Made me realise what torment we may go through. And i realise, that she had e same problem as me. Missing him. I feel so incomplete without him. Too bad HE has HER. But, they make a good couple, so im happy for them. I think..

Anyway, I gotta go back to school, the day after tomorrow. Haha, no wonder they made that into a movie. Well, havent really gone anywhere. Stuck at home.Tomorrow going swimming and gonna play tennis. But i got to watch e movie " PAHELI " yesterday. SO nice. Shah Rukh Khan and Rani Mukherji together. WOW!! And the movie was amazing. I really enjoyed every moment of it. The ending was so nice. I wanna watch it again.

Haix..im so bored now. No one at home. Nothing to do. I wish i could hang out with e youths. Especially, Gopi. Yesterday, he totally ditched us. I even gave him the " Dont go..stay and talk to me lah" look. Then, he went with Deeps and Giri and Steven. Haix.. i felt so pissed at him. I really miss talking to him. He looked so handsome yesterday. I wonder if he still likes me? He sure doesnt act like he does. I couldnt care less sometimes. I feel like just giving up what we have now. Haix..forget him. I hope he reads this.. so tt he noes how i feel. Oh ya, Shehan came yesterday to church. Long time never see him, nice to talk to him. He looked very hot. Haha, should have asked him to play the guitar.

OK..well ...i got really nothing else to say. So ill go now. Dont forget to tag my blog or leave a comment. OK..well. OK..bubye. OK.. ciao. OK...im gonna go now. OK.. ta. OK..bye. OK..haha. Enuf.. =DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

Friday, January 27, 2006 ; 7:47 PM

Haha..i really do love the night life. Cause i blend right in. Im camouflaged in the dark, so i can without caring about being seen. Before I begin , Happy Chinese New Year. Ok..back to me.

Well, I wanted to go to TM with my friends.But was suffering from terrible stomach kramps. Talk about the agony of being a woman. Haha. Ok, now having cell group in my house. Going to go off soon. In school, I saw HIM. He looked good as usual. Afiqah is gonna help me. Well, so glad for this long weekend. Enjoy nicely and watch " Cheaper by the Dozen 2". Took my Geog test today, quite easy.

I am kinda fighting with Nisa,Nadera and Zahira. Im feeling so pissed at them right now. Long story, dont wanna bother to explain. So, thank God for Aida, im accompanying her now. She is so right... BE BY YRSELF!! Thanks for the great advice Aida. Ok, and the concert was cool too. Nice dance. I sat with Aida,Hadi and Ghaz. Ghaz and Hadi were funny as usual. I was laughing away. Haha..still laughing now. Too bad our model didnt win. But like who cares.. NOT ME! Now, i gotta go start the car. My dad's instructions before leaving. So Grace and me r gonna do it. I miss Caleb. CALEB..COME BACK SOON!! .. Dying without you. Haix..my best bro in e world. OK..im gonna go off now. Adios. Running out of things to write. Bubye. Tc.. =DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

Thursday, January 26, 2006 ; 10:13 PM

Hey people. Well.Right now,im listening to music and chatting and updating my blog.My dad and brothers have left already. Hope they are enjoying their time in Bangalore.Can't wait till they come back. I miss Caleb so much. SO MUCH!! Im so glad he's my bro. Without his jokes,there is no happiness.So dull man. Well. Today,we had to make some things for tomorrow, for our MODEL. We made the chinese knot,ketupat and indian garlands. Quite fun. I had to help some classes cause im a prefect. So,i got class 403. Next door to his class. I WAS SO EXCITED!!!! So, after helping them out , e gurl wanted to make one more garland. So ,i went next door with Madel to see if there was leftover lah. I WENT TO HIS CLASS! I saw him there.He also saw me. But we didnt speak as usual. He looked handsome. So, after going back to 403, he came there too. He came to kacau. Haha,and my best friends,Nisa and Nadera, were like making signals to me. Haha..so malu seh. So,i was very happy.

Then, we had to stay for Algebra workshop. IT WAS SO BORING!! Her voice is so damn irritating. And she came and shouted in my ear. BLOODY IDIOT MAN!! Make me go deaf. Haix..and my Algebra is already good. She talks so fast, that I have no idea what she is talking bout. I was so confused. Damn it man..and they are gonna test us!! Well, tomorrow maybe gonna see "Cheaper by the Dozen 2" . If not, gonna see another day. I have to watch it, its a Hilary Duff movie, MUST WATCH!!. Plus, Mr.Hottie is there -Tom Welling. So cant wait to see it. Im so excited. Well , my mum is crashing in my room today. So, its gonna be me,sis,little bro and mum in one room, with e aircon. So cosy! OK... i wrote two more poems.. but im gonna let you read only one. Ok.. well..here goes.

- Our Saviour-
As the moon shows its beauty in the misty sky
The grills on the walls keep me trapped in this fortress
Deprived of being able to come before my Saviour, undignified
Followed by the happiness of children, in a child itself.
So the clock ticks to keep track of life around me
With a small breeze blowing from the North,
though trapped, I feel secure and comforted here.
Even though life around me passes ever so quickly,
I remain loyal to the easy,laid-back attitude.
For now blood flies away, to a country unknown
Protected and ensured by Christ's own love
All alone I sit here now, to pursue the prophecy.
Of God's plan for me, one step at a time.
As the life of people,slips out of my hand
and into the loving arms of God, our Saviour.

OK..so now im off. So,bubye. Adios. Later. Gdnite. Tc..
=DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

Wednesday, January 25, 2006 ; 10:12 PM

Hello everyone.Welcome to the late night show with Debbie. How are all of your guys.Anyway,enjoy the pics I placed below. Well.Today was so cool. I met Aaron Aziz and Sheikh Haikel. Aaron teaches acting and Sheikh teaches rap. Well, they are so cool. No big deal rite. Cause Aaron lives in my block. So he's my neighbour. And Sheikh lives in my friend's condo in Pasir Ris too. This is all to cool. Anyway,moving on.

Today,Cikgu Badariah praised me for checking my test paper after i completed it. Haha. Didnt expect that to happen to me.But it worked. Checking my paper worked. Cause last time when I used to check my paper, I didnt spot mistakes. But this time,i did. SO it worked. BIG DISCOVERY HUH!!! NOT!. For malay-speaking ppl only: Tetapi, kawan saya,Zahira, yang pandai dalam bahasa Melayu, tidak dapat sama comment. Cikgu cakap kepada dia" Walaupun awak baik dalam Melayu,kau mesti semak.Sangat penting untuk semak,kau boleh dapat markah lagi tinggi. " Lepas itu, dia malu.. dan aku ketawa. Merepek je ah!! Maafkan aku Zahira!! Hehe. OKay..now back to English. Well,my friend sent me a video of his friends beating him up. It was so fake man. Haha, but fun to watch. And he also admitted that he was a heavy smoker. Poor thing! So handsome and caring,but does one stupid thing. Haix. Oh ya,forgot to mention..i wrote a poem yesterday. Inspired by a friend to write. But its not about the friend lah. Juz about something. Go figure!! Its completely original. SUMPAH!! WROTE IT ON MY OWN!! COPYRIGHT!.
i Shall type it out for you all.

Diminishing time

As the light of time is dawned by the moon's shadow,
so his love for me diminishes.
Though the years of glances and feelings have passed,
beckones the question in me of meaning and sacrifice.
Love proved unfailingly all this while,
but has it undone its trust this time.
My heart shall be awake,watching for a glance
from the eyes that bring joy and sadness,in a flash.
Cold and dark as it may be from the outside,
time shall tick away the hours,till my heart rests,
in eternal slumber,with or without his comfort.

- DEBBIE MALINI-

Well,thats all..thanks for reading.. Gdnite and Goodluck. bubye.
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Friday, January 20, 2006 ; 8:42 PM

Hey people.Well.Its Friday night.And what am I doing?Updating my blog,sitting here.Made dinner for my sibs.And left with nothing to do. What a great and interesting life i have..gimme a minute to breathe it all in. AHH..haix.. Anyway,I have no life.And if you feel my pain too, leave a comment or tag my blog. So..this is my life as a Teenage Gurl. Sound familiar!! WatEVa. Anyway,life is getting to be too boring.I mean times are changing so fast that every thing is being done for us..so we r useless. WE MIGHT AS WELL LEAVE THIS BLOODY EARTH AND START ALL OVER AGAIN ON ANOTHER PLANET. Hmmp..so bored. I wanna party man.Unfortunately,there isnt any goin on. HAi... weekend should be fun man.WATS UP WITH US!! Well..still got homework to do. OK..i guess ill go now.Adios.. BUbye
and aloha. OK... see ya guys, =DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

Wednesday, January 18, 2006 ; 9:43 PM

Has Idol mania begun again? Yes it has!. Just my luck..with streaming and all. Haix..not like I can do anything else about it. I pity those ppl who are sitting for important exams this year...and who also like Idol mania too. Its not fair leh...suffering this pain. But im sure there are "those" people.The people who either dont like Idol mania,or dont like studying. In either way, their loss. And by the way,Idol mania refers to both Singapore and American Idol. From today's American Idol audition, ..INDESCRIBABLE. Lack of talent..tts wat it is. Alot of people thought they could sing, but NO WAY man! Haha.. And Simon wasnt being his usual self..he was worse. Hmmm..ill look into that. But the show wouldnt be complete without those people lah.. it adds laughter into e show. Haha,i cant believe there was a Paris Hilton wannabe .....like get a life. And i didnt noe people could be so backstabbing. Again,get a life. Haha. Cant wait to crown e next Singapore Idol. But my heart will always be with Taufik Batisah. No.1 Singapore Idol. Well, time will go by. And then, STREAMING!!! ..DIE ! Haix..its another deathly burden of life.Determining your future and your life after graduation and such. Jeez..im creepin myself.

Now my sis is watching Tab TV. Poor thing those girls.Who are actually born boys. Pity them. Cant enjoy life the way we can. We shld thank God for our life. Haha. Look who's talkin rite. Ok.I wanna go now. Dont forget to leave a message in my CBOX ok. Juz write your name and message..forget the URL crap. OK..thanks.
Dont forget to be thankful. Adios. BUbyE. See yA.GdnITe. Haix =DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

; 4:08 PM

Dont cha wish the world would be a better place. Dont cha wish that people could just tell you how they feel in the open. Dont cha wish that school would be shut down. Dont cha wish that life aint as sucky as it is........ well.. dont cha? ....WHO THE HELL ASKED YOU ANYWAY. Dont cha wish I did?

Anyway,today was boring. I was like stuck in this freak fest. School was a bore. Except for Science,cause my frenz fought...at least there was some action.Then Mrs.Cho,broke it up and talked to both of them. Poor Kishen, haha ..but id rather support him than the other dude. Ok then,went to Zahira's house to visit her. Gave her homework and then left...she gave me a goodie bag. Umm.sedapnya! Then,came home watched TV and here I am. But the best part of my day was seeing him..my ex-NCO. He looked handsome as usual. Of course. In school and the bus-stop. Now my day is complete. I can rest in peace. Haha... slept late yesterday cause I was watchin Golden Globes. Haiya..im too tired to go on. I can feel the energy draining out of me.Hmmpp...im shlumping now. Haha..wateva. Aiya.. still got hmwrk to do...boring man. Haiya...cant wait to see him again. Well..im gonna sign off now. See ya peeps later ok... energy draining too much . I NEED SLEEP!!!... haha...ok..bubye..adios.. =DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

Sunday, January 15, 2006 ; 9:37 PM

Well..today was or still is a boring day.Basically,I woke up at like 7.45 to go to church.Then after church,the SWAT team went to have lunch.We chatted,laughed and filled each other in on what happened durin the week.Then,some ppl went out and the rest went home.But it was still a fun day as usual.Poor Paul,his broke his finger and now his whole hand is in a cast.But its a good thing too cause he can ask ppl to do things for him.Talk about being lame.But its a good thing he's strong,so he can still bully ppl.Got my heart broken on Friday.By my ex-NCO.Turns out..ah nvm.. forget it..don wanna get in truble with him.And Bobby,dont say anything okay. SShhh.And by the way, Pyar dhosti he(not sure abt e spelling).I feel so depressed now,but I cant tell everyone that.So I try my best to act happy,but it doesnt work.I think im pissing my bro,Caleb,off.But right now,im talkin to Bobby,he seems to be more patient in tt area.See how much truble I have to go thru just for my heart to be mended.So painful.

Anyway,talked to Gopi today.He looked nice.Im sure you guys can agree with me.Tried to take his pic but too many ppl were around.So,at least Chai Ling has been reading up on my blog.Thats a true friend.Thanks babe.Um,went to a youth concert yesterday.They sang all 'Hillsong' songs.Was quite nice actually,the church was very big.It was in Harbourfront.Damn far right,tell me about it.Well,tomorrow gotta go back to school.Lazy,but have too.Its a burden I bear.Oh ya,im gonna go for Vocal lessons,to train my voice.Since,ppl tell me I can sing very well,I decided to join so I can join the Worship team soon and be able to sing backup.So excited,can wait.And I got my scholarship alreadi.Tell you guys more later.Gtg now.

Adios.Gdnite.Take care.Bubye.See ya.And wateva. =DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

Thursday, January 12, 2006 ; 6:15 PM

Hey guys.Well,as you can see,I've updated my blog.New photos and such.Check it out ok.It starts with a welcome and ends with an XOXO.Anyways,school.Hmmm..gimme a few damn seconds to figure out how to describe school.Let's list it out shall we.School can be fun and boring.I know alot of ppl say that.But its true.School can be rockin,dependin on e teachers,principal,discipline mistress and the way they bring up the students.Sometimes,you just feel like shouting in yr teachers faces,slapping them or kick their a**es. But you just can't.What to do?I can tell you.Start a blog and let it all out.I know,lame.Tts yr prob.

OK..im gonna watch The Nanny..be back later.
...........INTERMISSION........

.......INTERMISSION OVER........

Ok.im back.Well.School as usual is e best and worse.Like i cld care less.Haha,just wanted to let out my feelings and get a chance to update my blog.Gtg now.Wateva. Later. Adios. BuBye.... =DeBbIe=

you are my past ; now, im my everything

Saturday, January 07, 2006 ; 7:38 PM

Hey people.This post is about my X'mas holidays.Its about what I did for the holidays and what presents I got. My friend,Zahira asked me to post this,so Im posting it.Got problems with it,I dont care.

So,for X'mas Eve, I had dance practice.Just incase you didn't know,Im a dancer.Anyway,after dance practice, I stayed and helped to decorate the church for X'mas day.We did alot of deco and stuff,and the placed turned out great.Plus,it was night,so with the air-con on,it felt like it was x'mas with snow.Cause we used cotton to give the effect of snow.It was damn nice.Anyway,my family and I counted down to X'mas Day.Then,we wished each other. In the morning,on X'mas, we went to church.And I wore my new outfit from This Fashion.I danced and then got my presents. I got quite alot of presents.I'll list them so it'll be easier.

Caleb,Abigail,Priscilla - Tommy Girl Perfume
Grace - 2 Bottles of Lip Gloss from Body Shop
Joanna - T-shirt from Samuel and Kelvin
Gopi - A beautiful chain with a red rose pendant
Soo Bin - A wallet and a card
Paul - A card and a key chain
Rakhi - Ladies stuff
Bobby - A card

And if I forgot anyone else,forgive me.

So that's basically what we did on X'mas.And we went carolling a few days before there.We went to our church members houses and sang there.Then,we feasted.It was so cool.I loved the holidays.I was so much fun. Hopefully,next year will be better.So,thats the 411. Well,hope you enjoyed your own hols.Now,its back to skool.And this year,im having Streaming.Gotta study hard.So..gtg..bubye.Adios.
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you are my past ; now, im my everything